The Rollercoaster

that is my emotions about leaving......

One minute I am sooooo excited, and then suddenly, after meeting a friend or looking out over the rolling countryside on my way to get the kids from their tiny village school, I get all emotional and don't see how I can leave - or wonder if we are doing the right thing.

Witney was somewhere that, although I was excited about moving to, I had never heard of it before. It felt like landing in the middle of nowhere and I didn't know a soul.  I said quite adamantly that we'd only stay for two years tops.  Well, 4 years later I am really sad to say goodbye.  It's only really in the last 8 months or so that I have really begun to feel like it is 'home'.  Something I never thought, or wanted to think of it as.  Now when I think about leaving it makes me sad.  It is such a beautiful, historic place to live.  Everwhere you look there is beauty and history - the ancient Wychwood forest, the hundreds-of-years-old churches dotted around (still in use), the undulating hills and valleys, the River Windrush bubbling through the Main streets - oh ok, I know I am looking at things emotionally.  It sure doesn't feel so great during long, wet, grey winters........ but I realise that I actually LOVE living here.  And I think my feelings of home are reinforced by the fact that I have given birth here to (you mothers will understand that I'm sure). But changes are afoot and I am, beneath it all, excited about what is yet to come.......